Wednesday, April 2, 2014

Monochromograph

Thunder crashes and lightning flashes outside, sporadic arms of light reach across the sky; the clouds like an Ansel Adams photograph, and the rain like Noah’s flood.

A house with rickety walls, a ramshackle roof. The windows shake. No electricity or artificial light cast their pale glow upon the scene, inside the furniture and little boy are lit by strobes of brilliant white. The shadows cast are long and quick, the corners shrouded are unlit. 

He’s seven years old, and seventeen days. His parents sleep like babes upstairs. He too should be in slumber’s grip, but drawn to waking by the storm he finds himself wandering the house at night.

Tow-headed, a ribs-showing skinny, curious eyes cast about the maze of flashing light and familiar objects turn strange and tall. For a while, he is content to sit, on the living room floor by the brightness lit. Staring out at the sky and the chariots of wrath, listening closely to the pattern of the rain as it splats and slams against the speckled pains of glass. 

A rustling sound catches his ear, the pitter-patter of tiny hands on hardwood. The little boy drops to all fours, and looks under his father’s raggedy chair. A small white mouse, with pink eyes; an intruder in an otherwise solitary and monochromatic setting. The mouse wiggles his nose, and the boy does the same, squeaking at the mouse trying to invoke a reply. 

The mouse just sits and stares, looking back with a matched curiosity, uncertain if he should flee or remain completely still. The boy, bony-awkward, reaches out a freckled hand; a welcoming posture of invitation. Patiently he waits for a response. With quick but apprehensive movements, the mouse crawls near, curiosity supplanting fear, and with trepidation climbs into the outstretched palm. 

A death-tight grip crushes tiny bones and sinew pops, a scratching squeal of sudden terror silenced in a tiny freckled fist; and thunder cracks and rolls across the plain. 

Then, spying underneath the stair a smallish scar, a crack of darkness leading down into the walls; the boy becomes a mouse. Pale white, a contrast to the waving shadows, the boy-mouse runs, and dives into the black. A new father for the mouslings hidden, a husband to a widowed rodent wife. 

And the storm drowns on, pouring rain into the cracked and barren farmland. 

End.

Tuesday, April 1, 2014

Doors

When I pushed two fingers into her warmth, I felt her wings arch as she caught her breath. The chamber was dark, with only a sliver of cold starlight cutting in through the stone wall. She was soft wet velvet. The tangled bedsheets and curtains linen, red. Listening to her moaning, I stroked her clit with my tongue. She tasted like honey.

Once she was done using me, I would be strung and cut. I would let her draw a dozen patterns with my blood for another night like this. Someone had to be a living gate, there was no other way into the vaults of heaven; and I was glad to be a tool for her insurrection.

End. 

Tuesday, March 18, 2014

Unplugged

So stressed out
I think I might get sick
Indigestion, palpitations, and sweat on my lip
I've been missing you,
And it's stressed me to the max
If you don't return soon I might have a heart attack

I'm so stressed out
My stomach is in knots
My breathing is shallow and my heart is doing flips
Inside my chest,
Is where you belong
But not metaphorically, actually here in my arms

Come back quick, 'cause I'm sick, My immune system's down
There are bags under my eyes, I'm laying on the ground

My heart's stopped and I'm convulsing
My pulse is dropping rapidly
My face is going vapid and my lungs are both collapsing

I'm not dead, I'm in fugue
I'm lost out in the darkness
I'm unconscious
And this might just be the end

Machines are breathing for me
And I'm peeing through a tube
My hospital gown, soaked with bodily fluids
Out in the hall
A doctor shakes his head, drops my chart
And tells my friends to say their last goodbyes

'Cause I'm terminal
And you've only been gone for five minutes

End.

Monday, March 17, 2014

Lovelylostboy

If you haven't seen my Tumblr, it is messed up and beautiful and so not safe for work. Unless you work as a photographer who specializes in artistic nudes and taxidermy animals.

http://lovelylostboy.tumblr.com/

The Five-Year Vows

I'm mad, angry, grumpy, sad and lonely.
I'm hungry, horny, tired, happy and sick.
I'm hateful / loving / broken / lovely and ugly
I'm nothing / everyone / myself / the one and only
I'm aggressive, passionate, violent, and a pacifist
I'm holy, heartbroken, asleep and dreaming
I'm creative / hurtful / naked / waking / broken
I am the best -I have no self esteem.
I'm kind. I'm loyal. I'm sweet. I'm fierce.
I'm vulnerable and guarded; stoic and emotional
I'm supportive and critical; derisive and doting
I am me, myself, and I love you.
I don't know why you stay.
I push you away / I need your touch.
I call you names, I kiss your feet, and I yell.
I worship you and cheat on you and lie
I always tell the truth.
I'm one in a million / I'm yours
I'm fleeting / steady / rock-solid / unpredictable.
Every time you sleep I think of leaving.
If I left you I would die.
If you died I'm sure I would be fine
If someone took you I would murder
I would let you go if your life would be better
I've argued with God about who I love more.
I need you when I'm sick or healthy
I need my space / I don't want to talk
I want to tell you every dark or lovely thing
I smell your hair when you're near
I've memorized every curve of your body
I watch you sleeping and wonder what you're dreaming
I'm well-adjusted, healthy and autonomous.
I'm sure of nothing; convinced-cocksure of everything
I only know one thing.
I love you and I think I always will.
Nothing you could do would ever make me leave.
I'm bound to you, a part of you, apart from you
I being myself will forever be yours
I'm sure I'm always yours
For what it's worth I'm yours
For as long as you care to love me.

End.

Friday, February 7, 2014

Pros and Cons: Batman versus My Wife

Pros: Batman

Karate
Super genius
Batmobile
Chin
Black Everything
Billionaire
Cuddler

Pros: Wife

Karate
Regular Genius
Makes Cookies
Sexy
Has Sex with Me
Funny
Cuddler

Cons: Batman

Gravely Voice
Vigilante
Crazy Schedule
Crazy
Orphan
Weeping
Fictional

Cons: Wife

None

Tuesday, November 5, 2013

Heavy

I can remember when I could see my whole back in the mirror at once
Now, it's like four backs, with rolls and valleys
There's more acne on my shoulders than on the face of a 14-year-old mathlete

I can remember when only 50% of my body was covered with stretch marks
Now, they cover every saggy inch, some deep and purple and fresh
Others old, shiny and scar-white, branching down my arms and legs

I can remember when climbing a flight of stairs never gave me pause
Now, when I reach the top, I wheeze, bending over to catch my breath
I can feel my pulse racing, thundering in my ears, ragged and irregular

My eyes are the same steely blue, like an ocean after a storm
But now, they are set in deep baggy sacks; familiar eyes
Staring out from a swollen, drooping face with several waggling chins

Some day, I tell myself, I'll become strong and fit, energetic
Running through the spring slush, or a stiff autumn breeze
And I'll be nimble and sexy on the dance floor, a picture of fitness and health

It will happen like magic; one day, I'll wake up and climb on the scale
And it won't bottom out, I will be able to see the numbers around
My elephantine waistline, the pounds having disappeared like smoke in the night

I will look in the mirror and turn, able to see my entire back at once
My abdomen will ripple with statuesque muscles
Then, having sex with my wife won’t feel like a cross-country marathon

But somehow, in this fantasy, I can still eat four strips of bacon with every meal

End